Inquired on Four.. Doubtful for Any.. But I can have Hope.

Spoke with a foster care group in a nearby county who were baffled on why we are not being supported thru our foster care agency to adopt and suggested maybe we change agencies.. We love the caseworkers we work with..They have a real love for the children and it's obvious and are supportive of the foster parents (in foster care situations) however even though our homefinders and caseworkers are educated in the fact that we would like to adopt  seems like we hit a brick wall getting anywhere adoption wise..

I did send out inquiries on four children..I shouldn't have sent an inquiry out for three of them though because they are a sibling group of three and we cannot adopt three children as much as it's irresistible, they are 3 blond haired, blue eyed boys ages 3, 2, 1)  Reality is three is too many seeing that we have three littler ones at home not to mention our foster son who is going home either June or beginning of July.  I got drawn into their beautiful little serious faces and sent it out anyhow, not thinking I'd get a response..I got a response- submit your homestudy.  Now we've been asked for our homestudy before and gotten nowhere fast but I just can't do it.  What would happen if we actually did get chosen?  I've already gotten a resounding no from my hubby so it stops here.  It's hard to stop it before it even starts but honestly, after getting shut down so many times, I'm pretty confident it will happen again. 

We did send out an inquiry on a single four yr old little girl but I'm not really positive about hearing back.  Oftentimes caseworkers don't even contact back at all.. Then they see we have children at home and that's the next end..  But we don't know unless we try.  And I will keep trying till we find the child that is meant for our family, because I truly believe deep in my heart that there is a child for us out there, we just have to find him/her...

Journaling Our Hopes and Prayers to add to our family through adoption..

Last Summer was the beginning of a new journey..The journey to add to our family through adoption. Seeing as we are certified foster parents in Upstate NY I figured, finding a child to add to our family would be easy as pie.  Not so much..Not so much at all.. So Here we are many months later no closer to adopting as when we started.  New York is filled with many teenagers in need of forever homes, but Bob and I don't feel called to adopt a teenager, we deeply desire and hope to adopt a baby or a younger child (or even two children) that can grow up with our own..

We are deeply thankful for the children God has blessed us with, but there's been a missing piece lingering.. I (Elizabeth) feel that missing piece especially, losing four babies is difficult..Giving birth to two babies is joyous and adopting a child is equally joyous (and having two through my husband's first marriage has also had it's great joys as well)  but with the thousands of children in need of homes in the US, and this family wanting to add to our family through adoption, why is it so very difficult to find a match for our family?  My arms desperately want to be filled with a little one again.. 

I've scoured adoption websites daily.  googled key words for adoption regularly, started webpages, wrote up posts on adoption forums, let our homefinder know, inquired over almost 30 children now..etc, etc, etc..  We've been dragged into scams quite a few times already in the hopes of adopting.. It's difficult to know that so many people have no conscience and have no problem dangling the thought of a child and a baby in front of a family's face who would love nothing more than to add to their family.  It makes it feel so exciting and hopeful but reality is toying with emotions is all that it ends with..

My hope is maybe through starting this blog, the right people will read it and find us.. And in the process it will be used as an outlet for journaling our adoption process and journey as well as a way to express the emotions swirling around it all.

So if you are reading this, feel free to comment and let me know you are here.  If you are going through this also, feel free to add imput, I'd love to connect with others going down a similar path.  If you are one of the minority looking for a family for their child..Please Please Please, consider us a possible forever family.  We can't provide for all of your financial needs, but we can pay legal fees associated with adoption and provide a loving and safe home filled with fun and loving siblings for your child complete with pets and a huge backyard in a nice neighborhood filled with other children.